looking for the lost hope

i think im very far from 'him'.. missed d times wen we used to date... m tryin my besh 2 be a new nina.. the new nina dat He'll love.. but y i feel dat the more i try, the more i feel lost..? im not tryin hard enough izzit? i cant loose any hope now.. i juz cant!

believe in Him, believe in urself-dat were d words mom always told me... can i put my hope again? all i can see, hope is like an investment.. the more u invest in it, the riskier it get... n wen u lost, u find urself wif hurtful thoughts... izit like dat? or im juz seeing things too differently..~?

i dunoe.. for all i noe, luv will grow.. hope will not die.. i'll keep holding onto those words.. juz tryin to get better n better each day... my search never ends~

not too late

wats dis pain im feeling..? its cumin from inside.. very deep feeling..~ its hurtful... Oh Allah.. help nina...!

if i've a big magic eraser, i'll delete every single pain memory from my mind.... haha.. GET REAL nina!!! there isn't any!! u felt hurt, u're dissapointed, u're down... SO WAT??!! there's notin wrong wif dat.. so wat if u did any mistakes..? so wat if u didn't get everytin dat u wanted..? its not the end of the world..! remember, Allah noes wats best for u... His Promise...

today kn brainwash ngan my beloved bro... luv u abg..! manyak a die ckp.. br bkak sket otak ni... huhu.. hav 2 do more reading after dis..! huhu.. em.. abg ckp sumtimes, we have to get to the bottom so that we know how to get to the top... its the pain that'll giv u the guts to improve.. we learn from mistakes.. dun eva try to be a perfectionists coz they wont make any mistakes.. n the real mistakes in lyfe are not making one.. be someone who's moderate and not doing too much in everything~ so, dun be afraid to fall, dun be afraid to get hurt coz dat's called LIFE...! its round n when u're at the bottom of it, crawl, climb, walk or run as fast as you can to get to the top again... dis time, u'll be better, stronger insya Allah...

my mistake was i was soo afraid to get hurt, dissapointed that i forgot bout the lyfe cycle... i was created to do mistakes coz im not perfect... no one is.. Insya Allah i can be great in both worlds.. juz hav 2 try bit harder next time.. gettin hurt is juz a small hint to tell me dat Allah luvs me.. Alhamdulilah.. thank you Allah.. there are still rooms for improvements.. n im not too late to join the room.. i'll be better, i'll be stronger insya Allah....

if people stat camparing n talks bout u, juz ignore them.. u know urself better.. plug ur ears n smile... juz remember, if u do sumtin, do it bcoz of HIM, not coz of anyone else.. so, y must u think of other people's thoughts.. how bout His thoughts?? did we think any of dat b4 we do sumtin..?? muhasabah~

muadzam-ump-uzlah~

020408 (slase) - org kn g muadzam balek pas bes exam.. dpt spent time kat umah 2 ari jek.. uhuhu.. sabo je la... amanah n responsibility cum 1st kn??

040408 (jumat) - rermai g ump coz de konsert akhil hayy.. grak 6 kete.. 25 org skali.. besh bangat! smpi ump da kul 6 lbey... konsert kul 9.. so, byk gle mase nk rest2.. mase org rest, kte lari sat nk jmpe wan! huhu...! bout 2-3 years x jmpe wan.. slalu gado dlm fon jek.. finally dpt jmpe gaks.. alhamdulilah... kat sne mcm2 jadik.. huhu.. kn tego la, kn mara la.. tp pape pon, org tau org len syg kte.. huhu.. untung dpt manyak akak tlg tgk kn.. besh2.. mlm tu wan jadik photographer.. kire x sie2 la asek beli mag psl camera kecik2 dulu... huhu.. pe agy, gn a sgale yg ade.. keje wan kn mek pic ktorg a.. huhu. besh2.. thanx wan.. len kali ktorg invite dtg muadzam mek aktiviti ktorg ek?? musti dtg tau! XD... huhu... pic kat sblah ni hasil keje wan a.. tenkiu wan..!! XP

050408 (sabtu) - pas g ump, the next day g umah presiden laks... plg besh dpt mkn nasik dagang!!! Allah je tau nikmat mase tu.. adui... ble balek, rindu a lak... huhu... sdap bangat..! rezeki tol.. thanx umi..! XD umah pres ni cam zoo pon de, cam umah kdai pon de... de kdai mkn, de galeri, de kandang kambing, kandang itik, ayam la, pokok tayah ckp la, mmg la ade... huhu.. ceria tul umah.. sume de.. bgos tol... besh a dpt tgk kmbing dpn2... cuak a gak tgk mnatang kaki 4 tu.. da le de tanduk.. adoi.. patu nk suro org pgang2..! nk nanges pon de.. haha.. cuak2.. pape pon, mmg tu a pngalaman tale lupe... besh... de 1 kambing tu kale die itam putih cam kale lembu... kambing tu betine n die a black sheep kat situ... die je itam putih... special sgt..! huhu... comel2... byk a blaja.. thanx pkck pres..!

muke2 masyuk tgk kambeng! haha..

memori di kandang kambeng~

pic kat bwh ni mek kat umah pres ngan parents die skali... besh bangat!

060408 (ahad) - uzlah stat.. pepg lg kul 8 da stat... enuf of fun, it's work time... huhhu.. sume smangat nk wat keje... komited gler~ besh a tgk org len wat keje... cam dlm family... dlm prgram ni, manyak a blaja.. manyak aktiviti da plan next sem.. insya Allah kalo tade aral, bole proceed.. cant wait..! mase uzlah ni everythin is in team.. so, mmg rase ukhwah maken kwat... yg slame ni xpnah tego, tetibe bole gelak gle2... besh a... pepg qiam sesme... solat jemaah... idup bjamaah tu indah bangat! luvd it... had a rily great time.. banyak dpt blaja... x rugi a g sne... huhu.. 3 ari yg pack sgt, tp besh! yay...!

holiday = bzi..?

huhuhu... been since a while since i posted d last news... emm.. skang ni da stat olie..!! yay!!!! besh... 3 months hibernate, sape x ske kn?? but skang ni ngan bzi2 agik.. kn wat tag utk sife, kn g ump (dpt jmpe wan *wink*) then de prgram uzlah 3 ari.. afta dat, its home swit home 4 me..!!! yayaya...! cant wait... rite now, ngah wat tag 4 sife.. 4o tags.. manyak tol!!!! xbole tdo agik mlm ni..!! huhu... wish me lak!!!