the immature part of amanina~

okay saya tersangat jeles ble dapat tau fatin rezal nak g utp~

saya tersangat jeles lagi ble dpt tau saya xdpt g utp~

saya tersangat jeles ble fikir saya x dpt jumpe fatin rezal~

saya tersangat jeles ble fikir saya xdpt lepak ngan geng utp~

saya tersangat2 jeles~

n this feeling is killing me~~

why?

coz i dun have much time nk lepak2 lagi da~

i'm already going to the adulthood phase~

after grad, keje~

keje = bigger responsibilities~

responsibilities towards diri sndri btambah~ kn fikir kawen lagi~

responsibilities towards family lagi btambah~

oh lala~

call me coward, but i'm scared and i'm not lying~

a part of me wants to go to the phase,

but another part of me still wants to 'hoohaa'~

i hate the fact that the time has come for me to stop

hanging around with my utp gang~

hanging around with my frens~

because i love them~

and its hard to let go~

thinking of letting them go is hard~

it'll bring tears to my eyes~

i really want to go with fatin to perak~

i pray really hard to go~

but i can't~

the feeling of jealousy is really high right now~

i hate this feeling!

hasad ni tak bagus!!

berlapang dada laa amanina!

sometimes benda yang kite nak. kdg2 bukan yg terbaik tuk kte

sometimes bende yg kte tanak tulah yg terbaek tuk kte~

think nina think!!

amanina, please berlapang dada~

amanina, please be mature~

amanina, please please please~

oh Allah, nina sayangkan famili nina~

ya Allah, nina sayangkan famili uniten nina~

ya rabb, nina sayangkan famili bun nina~

ya rahman, nina sayangkan famili icc nina~

ya rahim, nina sayangkan famili icc utp nina~

please love them as much as they loved me~

coz i love them from the bottom of my heart~

may Allah bless~

mode: self-reflection and learning to say alhamdulillah~

and the dilemma starts~

approximately 66 days left before nina officially ended her last paper at uniten~

66 days left before nina completed her battle at uniten~

66 days left before nina ended her precious time as a student~

always dream of wearing this hat!! 

may nina get her wish~

=_=

after the result comes out, 

nina has to report to ytn~

then report to tnb insya Allah

so laa nervous!!!

huhu~

bonded for 6 years!!

damn long beb~

may nina get through with His guidance and help~

=)

going to tnb means nina has limited choice of position to apply~

means, nina can't really decide the post that nina wants 

coz, it's all up to tnb to decide~

but deep down nina really loves audit!

if nina can't do external auditing,

internal auditing pon bule laa~

but nina's uncle warned nina bout internal auditing,

people won't like you if u do i.a, he said

hurm...

but nina is not a kind of person who can sits still n do the same work

account exec is not actually on top of nina's favourite post list~

but...

hurm...

Allah know's best kn?

please pray for nina~

may nina able to persue her dreams!

audit or no audit?

liked or not to be liked?

hectic life or normal life?

serious dilemma~

oh Allah, please guide nina~

mode: istikharah~

may Allah bless~

saya suka nama saya =)

 nama saya amanina fasihah

anak en. mohd zain dan pn. aliah

saya suka nama saya..

kenapa saya suka nama saya?

sebab dia best~~~

amanina- harapan/cita2 kami

fasihah- fasih berkata-kata

amanina fasihah- harapan kami yang fasih berkata2 =)

terima kasih parents! =)

mase bday aritu, dpt keychain dr RARA...

ade tulis AMANINA!

nina sgt teruja!

bese klau keychain name2 ni byk tulis AMALINA~

best2!!

thanks rara!

sayang kamu!

kat belakang keychain tu tertulis laa cam dlm gambar kat atas tu..

hee..

btambah2 laa nina senyum =)

bersopan santun, 

berbudi bahasa,

pandai mengambil hati orang lain,

sistematik, kemas dan teratur dalam melakukan kerja.

muahaha

amin... doa2 laa nina jd cmtu.. hehe

nina letak kat pencil box supaya every day tgk keychain tu,

nina kn igt, arini kn sistematik, kemas dan teratur ble wat keje~

hahaha~

cam senget je kn?

tapi tape, 

coz nina suka!!

=)

may Allah bless

think nina think!

badan saket,

hati pedih,

emosi terusik,

otak jd cramp~

tanda2 stress?

or tanda2 hati yang "saket"?

thanks kamu for everything.

thanks for this hurtful feeling.

thanks for giving me this feeling during the last sem.

thanks for the memories.

thank you very much~

but muhasabah is one of the best things that you can do to calm yourself~

td, mak ade share 1 cite,

kisah pengemis yahudi buta dan nabi muhammad..

pengemis yahudi buta ni selalu menghasut orang-orang lain tuk memusuhi nabi..

mcm2 fitnah dilemparkan tuk memburukkan nabi..

nabi muhammad dtg xckp pape, bwk mknan, 

hancurkan makanan n suap perempuan yahudi buta tu.

sungguh mulia sifat nabi..

smpi la nabi wafat...

saidina abu bakar ambil alih sume tugas2 nabi,

and bila abu bakar ty aishah r.a.,

aishah menjawab, "ada 1 sunnah lg yg belum dilaksanakan" ---> menyuapkan perempuan yahudi buta makan..

bila abu bakar menyuap makanan pd mulut perempuan yahudi buta tu, 

perempuan buta tu marah n mtk disuapkan org yang selalu menyuapkan makanan kpdnya (nabi).

menitik air mata abu bakar mendengar 

dan bila diberitahu orang yang selalu menyuapkan makanan pada perempuan yahudi buta itu adalah nabi muhammad, 

perempuan buta tu terus mengucapkan syahadah n masuk islam.

byk pengajaran dr kisah ni..

nina belajar,

1. jgn mengharapkan ganjaran daripada orang yg kte da tlg coz only Allah je yg berhak memberi ganjaran n balasan.

2. always berbuat baik pd org lain walaupun org yg nk ditolong tu buat jahat pd kte.

3. jgn bersangka buruk pd org lain n watever happen, still buat baik pd org tu.

4. org yg berbuat jahat pd kte, one day, org tu akan sedar sume kesilapan die.

5. klau dengan orang yg kte x knl kte kn buat baik, klau ngan kawan baik kte, lagi2 laa kn buat baik. 

nina, think hard.. think with ur head, not ur emotions!

nina, sumtimes, though forgetting is hard, try to remember all the good deeds that the person had done to you~

nina, forgiving needs lots of strength to do, so plis forgive so that u can become strong..

nina, let He decides what is best for you~

nina, heal urself~

nina, learn to be mature~

nina, find peace by getting close to Him~

coz only He can heal u~

oh Allah, please please please forgive me~

may Allah bless~

you know who you are,

may Allah bless u~

xoxo